I wish i knew

The feeling of loneliness is unbearable, inside I feel empty.

Door without a key, a map without a compass.

The hope drains from my body as I make room for a hollow cadge off unhappiness intertwined with remorse and regret.

Confusion fills my mind as I decided my next step.

Where to go? How to start?

Depression hugs me as I grow to believe my realisation off my life.

Tears run from my eyes, this isn’t how it’s meant to be.

My dreams and now I’m left with.

Nothing.

My head hangs, as I grew tried of believing.

No path, no sense off direction, my heartaches.

I feel sick with greed, what happened to what I want?

My stomach holds on to my dreams.

There’s hope, there’s still hope.

I know the ending already

It ends with you and me.

This is my happily ever after.

Without regret, without question we fell in love.

You’re my home, the place where I feel safe, and the love off my life.

You represent my dairy, where I share my life with you.

You are my bed where I dream, my life where I live.

You have a magical power; I would do anything and everything for you.

I smile as I think off you; you are my world, my everything.

The idea off loving someone the way I love you was alien to e.

But I realised it isn’t the idea off love that I was unfamiliar with, it was the idea off finding someone I could share my world with. Someone who would love me as much as I loved him.

Someone who would try for me, someone who would never give up on me.

You make me happy, you make me love life, you make me want more.

Your strengths, your weakness, when you’re sick, when you’re healthy, I will take it all.

Good.

Bad.

And ugly.

You make me better.

Hooyo

My hooyo, she tells me when I am wrong, but she still loves me.

She wears all her colourful clothes.

The sweetest woman on earth.

I know she loves me, with out question.

It’s in the way she smiles, in the way she looks at me.

Love streams from her face.

Every wrinkle tells a story, every smile, and every frown.

The marks drawn on her face, describing what she went through to have me.

Love sweeps me away every time I look at her.

Whether your happy or sad I know and always will, your love is unique, uncontrollable and desirable.

The older I get the more I need you, I long for your embrace a baby longs for milk.

My superhero, my saver without doubt.

A woman who cannot do no wrong in my eyes.

Your beauty is ever lasting, to me your perfect.

My wonder woman, with the ability to make me happy.

Without you I’m nothing, you taught me how to love.

A flower is nothing without it thorns, my protector.

You taught me how to fly, my mummy bird, my teacher.

How can I think about my life, my goals my accomplishments without recognising that without you I would be nothing.

I am who I am due to the people in my life

Thank you hooyo.

Hello is it me your looking for?

Look no further, cause I’m here.

Always have been and always will be.

Look this way, yes me.

Thought you were looking for the one? Yes that’s me.

Hello is it me you looking for?

I’m the girl of your dreams, simple me.

I’m nothing special but I’m her.

Her, the one you’re looking for.

The one that’s perfect for you, that’s completes your universe.

Hello is it me your looking for?

I wasn’t hiding, been here the whole time.

You wasn’t looking close enough been by your side.

Understand that I’m her, the one, the one you been looking for.

Hello is it me your looking for?

No love wrong person, I’m looking for her.

He said she said

An uncontrollable situation, I need to prove myself.

Need to know the truth, it wasn't me.

Believer me, it wasn't me.

But you told me she said, now your say he said.

I'm frustrated, I'm confused.

Stop pointing the finger.

It weren't me, it was she.

But you told me she said , now your say he said.

Anger burns through my skull like a drill.

My skin crawls while my world claps around me.

Emotions turn to tears, streaming down the river of fear.

But you told me she said, now your say he said.

Confusion bursts in my mind, embarrassment follows fast be hide.

Who's lying, who's telling the truth.

I don't know what to do.

Stop pointing the finger.

But you told me she said, now your say he said.

You are my friend.

You was my friend.

Happily ever after

I had a dream.

A dream about a guy.

A dream about a guy that I loved and he loved me back.

I dreamt that I fell in love with his grace, his mind and who he was.

I dreamt off the man off my dreams.

I dreamt off my prince charming.

I dreamt off my happily ever after.

Eyes Never lies

Who ever said eyes are the window to the soul was right.

As much as you smile, your eyes say it all.

Sadness bleeds from your eyes like gun shot wound.

Pretending isn't gonna resolve anything, you need to face up to your problems.

Pressure fills your face with wrinkles.

Tears streams down, as the hope gets drained from your face.

Its not over.

Its just the beginning.

Endless love

I love you, you understans what I'm saying?

I love you now.

I love you tomorrow.

And I love you forever.

I have and always will.

The love I have for you intertwines in my mind, driving me insane.

I have endless love for you.

I welcome you into my heart like a mother welcomes her new born baby.

I love you now.

I love you tomorrow.

And I love you forever.

Tears flow down my face and drop into the river off sadness as the realisation of me and you comes to an end.

You never love me as much as I love you.

I love you now.

I love you tomorrow.

And I love you forever.

Did you hear me?

I love you.

Madness and rage fills my body, heat streams from my face, I love you, didn't you haer.

Embarrassment Consumes me.

But I love you.

This is not how its suppose to end.

I love you now.

I love you tomorrow.

And I love you forever.

I will never stop loving you.

And I know this is not the end.

Breathless

I can't breath.

My chest feels tight.

I feel sick.

My stomach aches.

I'm reminded by the love I had for you.

This isn't how its meant to be.

The story isn't meant to end here.

Where is my happily eve after.

I thought I stopped loving you, but I haven't.

Is it to late.

Why do I feel so much pain?

The beating off my heart slow down, I try and exhale.

But I can't.

I'm in so much pain.

I begin to cry.

The first tear represents anger.

The second disappointment.

The forth sadness.

The last regert.

I love you, but why does it hurt so much.

Why does my chest burns, my heartaches.

My mind goes blank, I'm here but I'm not.

Feeling off dizziness sweeps through my body as I begin to feel faint.

You don't care so why do I.

I feel sick, numbness fills my body, my glass heart begins to cut me.

You don't love me , so why do I?

I ignore my feeling for to long.

I never got to say goodbye.

I love you, but I hate you.

I didn't ask to feel like this.

But now its to late.

Nothing I can do but live.

This feeling off hollow, emptiness just has to pass.

Everything might be ok, but then again maybe it will not.

Hope.

Pray.

One day I will love again.

Action

I don't understand why you do what you do.

Never thought I would see the day you become a stranger to me.

I don't know you anymore.

I'm questioning if I ever knew the real you.

Have you changed or are you still the same.

Am I just reading between the lines, assuming something that never really exists.

Or am I just hoping for something, did I imagine you.

Is this the real you, cause your actions are speaking louder then your words.

Did I just read you wrong, was the book off you upside down.

Or are you now hiding, becoming something your not just to fit in.

The more I try to make excuses for you the more I realise the bottom line.

The clearest option, your actions.

I was told actions speaks louder then words, and in some cases I believe so.

But with you I can't imagine this is you.

I feel like a mother defending her child, only seeing a pure, innocent being who needs protection.

Actions speak louder then words.

Maybe I should take it like it is, instead of assuming and understand you are who you are due to the things you do.

To me you have changed.

This ain't you.

This ain't the you that I know.

Actions speaks louder then words, and you have spoken.

Confirmation

I'm sickened by your insecurities, your constant need for approval. Your lack off confidences disgusts me, your doubt drives me insane. Confirmation is not what you need, help is what you should seek. You always underestimate yourself, you are capable off anything.

If only you could see what I see.

Without fear, without doubt I can truly say your beautiful.

By beautiful I'm not only defining your outer exterior I'm describing your soul.

Your beauty is'nt just skin deep, its in the way you talk, the way you walk.

If only you could see what I see.

Every time I think off you I fall forever in love, your humble, your strong, respectful to the bone.

You have your mother's eyes and your father's heart, but the lack off believe is confusing me.

If only you could see what I see.

You have no self worth, you use modesty to cover up your lack of self-esteem.

Trying to describe your mind is like using one word to explain the earth.

Your complex and intelligent mind amazes me.

Every kind thing you do still suprises me.

If only I knew what you saw when you looked at me.